Depression: My Own Story (a la Eeyore)
Jan 2008 Depression: My Own Story (a la Eeyore)
I have experienced Depression, sometimes severely deep, throughout most of my life. It seemed like the one true constant companion.
As a six-year old I knew that no one, even God, loved me, so I ran away. Thankfully, my mother sent my two older sisters to come bring me back. I had to admit that the world was big and scary and that home was a pretty good place to be. BUT, my relief was short-lived and I soon found myself feeling Alone and Sad, Eeyore all the way.
There was never abuse of any kind in our home, so I didn’t have an “excuse” for Depression. It was decades later that I found out that it doesn’t always have a logical reason.
This pattern continued throughout adolescence and my younger adult years. Depression affected my decisions regarding work, college, dating, free time , everything. I was camped out at Depression State Park. Even back then, I was constantly on the lookout for something…anything…the next thing…that might help. I tried diets, exercise, medication, herbs, talk therapy, affirmations, etc. If you’ve had Depression or live with someone else who’s had it, you know what I’m talking about. Some things worked OK, but not great, others didn’t seem to budge any negativity for me, and the meds were just plain toxic. Though they helped temporarily the other effects weren’t acceptable. Frustration, anger, downward cycle. Migraine headaches were triggered. More frustration, anger.
Meanwhile, I had finished college, married, and had three children. Because my husband is in the military we’ve moved a lot; 15 times in 32 years. That brought different sets of challenges and I never seemed to be on top of Depression.
Often throughout those years I’d have days, sometimes whole weeks, when the Black Blanket of Depression just wouldn’t lift. I didn’t get much done, I sure wasn’t fun AT ALL to be around, and I felt like I was worthless and incapable of feeling good. My search continued, but only when I was “up”. Which wasn’t often.
Eventually, friends helped me find energy work. I started with Yoga and Essential Oils. Then as the Major Fog lifted and I was feeling lighter and had as many good days as bad, I found EFT. Amazingly, the more I was “up”, the more answers I’d find.
I was VERY skeptical of “Tapping” and was pretty hit-and-miss in using it, but after a couple of months had to admit that, “Hey, this is working! I feel good more often than sad!
Then in quick order, I was introduced to Reiki, Rapid Eye Technology, Chakra Clearing, and much more. I’ve used them all, loved them all, and I now live at a higher Vibrational Frequency than ever and it just keeps getting better!
THE END or as they say in the movies…THE BEGINNING!